Never fails that when I say I am getting back on track in this space I completely fail to do so. Life feels like it has been running at full speed lately after being on a moderate pace for so long. I'm mostly referring to my work life though. I took my old job once Gray decided he was going to move here and we would move in together. I was in school but because I was from out of town they were charging me some outrageous amount and to make a long story short I decided to stop going. I needed to get a job. So I took one, making way less money than I was making, way less responsibility than I had had and for a much smaller company than I was used to. I went from working for a global company, managing systems for over 300 employees to pretty much doing data entry for a company with maybe 200 employees. It was quite an adjustment. Fort Wayne isn't exactly a hot spot for awesome jobs though so I took what was offered. I took it with the intentions of finding something better as soon as we were settled. Well, four years later I was still there and hating it. Hated it so much it was giving me intense stomach issues. I finally decided it was really, really time to look, put myself out there and this awesome opportunity presented itself! I now work for a chain of healthy, natural, organic grocery stores opening only in the Midwest with lots of room for growth. I feel like I have used my brain more in the past 3 week more than I did in the past 4 years at my previous job and damn, it feels really good.
It's truly amazing to me what being in the wrong job can do to you and how much it can affect your life. I definitely let myself be unhappy in my job for too long. The negativity from being so unhappy there started bleeding into so many other parts of my life and that's just not ok. But now. . . now I feel like a completely different person. I feel like I finally have a piece of myself back that I have been missing for so long. The part of me that knows I'm smart, that has confidence in who I am when it comes to getting my job done, the part of me that has my brain going 24/7. It feels so good to be a part of a company that I believe in and is so inline with our lifestyle. I also finally have a boss that I absolutely love and makes coming to work each day awesome! Amazing was a difference that all makes!
A new job has also come with a lot of adjustment though too because by the time I get home every day, my brain is fried. But in a good way. I'm starting to feel like an asshole though because it's definitely making me feel anti social in a lot of ways. So if you feel like I have been ignoring you or even this space, I'm not. I promise. I'm just getting adjusted to a new job, new hours and getting on a new routine. I feel disconnected but know I need to make an effort to start reaching out again and get it together. I really miss this space and feeling more conected to everyone. This week is the first week I have finally had the blog on my brain again and ideas going. It's all coming together but it's all good and even the craziness is something I am extremely, extremely thankful for. Thank you all so much for your patience with me for like the millionth time. It is more appreciated than you know! Hope you are all well and having a great week!